Still Going

I'm still in shock that I haven't smoked in over two+ weeks...it has been a slight struggle but I have made it through...I have been reading some of the horror stories about Chantix...it does have me somewhat alarmed...I have been noticing a neck ache but that could be just the way I sleep...I've had it before at times...then my knees have been aching but that could also be walking everyday on the treadmill....so I hope and pray that I have no side effects....the nausea has completely gone away....the dreams well they are still there...not bad...just dreams....the gas is still there also...but I can live with those....it is really sad to hear that there are those that are having bad side effects...I know how they must feel wanting to quit and hoping that Chantix was the answer....I don't ever want to go back...and hope I never do....Good Night for now...and God Bless

Day 15 I guess

I have felt very tired lately and depressed...I have also noticed my knees are starting to hurt and I'm not feeling like getting on the treadmill....Today is my Monday and 10 hour shifts...I don't really feel like going and dealing with a bunch of teenagers that are whining and arguing about everything...I want to sit and have my own pity party...I hate that I loved cigarettes so much but I also miss them so much...but I can breathe better...I overslept and didn't go to church today...I have been really having rough nights of sleeping...I even dreamt that I smoked...darn I hate not being able to sleep good...ok enough whining...just hought I needed to get it off my chest...and another thing how do you lik other peple to you blog....Have a great day everyone....

Day 13

Today is my 13th day of not smoking and my first day of the new schedule of 4 10's and 3 days off....I'm still am in shock that I'm not smoking....things are so stressfull...if I weren't on Chantix I know that I would have already caved in under the stress....but I CHOOSE to not smoke no matter what....spent some time on the treadmill today that felt so good....but it's funny how I read Maggie's blog and she talks about her ankle hurting from an old injury...I have the same problem...darn ankle swells up and it's hard to walk....she' gutsy though I won't dare try to jog...I received a call from my counselor at the tobacco users hot line...he was surprised to hear how I had quit....I told him I would have called him but that I would have been triggered because every time I talked on the phone I ended up going in the garage to smoke....things will get better though....enough for now...gearing up for Survivor and CSI....this will be the first time in a long time....I have been home on a Thursday night...I usually have it recorded and watch later.....

It's the end of day 10

I'm still smoke-free!!! it is amazing....WOO! HOO!....tonight was very crazy...teens were not getting along at all...I was somewhat stressed out...the thought of going outside to smoke did cross my mind...Thank God it only crossed...I didn't try to entertain the thought our give in to it...I love it when I am able to take a deep breathe....so for now I'm a very happy camper....Hope everyone had a wonderful smoke free day.....

The battle in my mind

Well today has been a week of not smoking....I know that the physical addiction is probably gone...however, the mental is still raging on.....I having been wanting a cigarette all morning and even part of last night....it appears only when I get frustrated...or in a spat with the other half....it seems nothing I say lately won't cause a rude comment back...I am tired of spending my week-ends frustrated...but another day down...I will focus on not smoking today...and remember that I can breathe better, I don't stink...and I can do this....

Feeling good today....

Well today is my Friday...the counter says 5 days...but I count 6 don't know how that works my last cigarette was on September 21 at 10.30 pm...but that doesn't matter all that much....I just know I'm not smoking...I got on the treadmill again today and actually walked 1.5 miles in 32 minutes...thats fantastic for me it used to take almost an hour when I was smoking...it feels so very good to not stink...my 19 year old son gave me a hug an kiss before bed the other night and said "Wow mom you don't stink. I'm so proud of you"...that almost made me cry...he has been the one child that has been concerned about my smoking...I just hope and pray when the Chantix goes away...I will remain smoke free...How long do people actually stay on the Chantix...I guess I don't need to be concerned with that right now..since I have a ways to go...Hopefully everyone will have a great rest of the day smoke-free

Another day ...I'm still doing it and can't believe it...Today was somewhat hard...the cravings or thoughts or whatever you want to call them were there many times today ..but I made it through...I actually got on the treadmill today for the first time in a few weeks...it was so different I could go faster and longer and not get out of breath so easy....I read my bible..did some praying and cleaning...it all felt good..it's day 5 now and almost over....I'm very thankful...for another day....